Atheism

So, from some of my earlier writings this you might infer that I am an Atheist; but I have to say I'm not sure what I am, I'd be all too pleased to feel differently, but to me the evidence is pretty strongly against any being like the classical interpretation of "God". I don't pretend to know for certain one way or the other.

While I'm dubious about God, in my life I've personally encountered some things that lead me to believe/suspect that the purely physical universe of Logical Positivist reductionism is not the whole picture; but again I don't pretend to know precisely what those things imply about the true nature of reality.

Our brains seem wired to attribute "agency" to the processes of the natural world, this can be sensibly traced to our evolutionary history and so such attribution is suspect at best.

I'm not a solipsist; I'm convinced that something other than my consciousness and sensorium exists.

It seems highly unlikely that all the other wildly and wonderfully exotic beings I encounter in my experience (animals, other people) are merely internal constructions.

Nonetheless, it remains unclear to me how I can be certain that anything I perceive is necessarily real.

So, where does this leave me?

I find myself in a bit of a quandary. I badly want there to be something other than/beyond mere physical existence; but I'm also very determined not to allow myself to be deluded by hope and wishful thinking. I'm all too well aware of the human proclivity for self-deception.